Heavy sigh...

I have been blessed by the fact that both of my parents are still alive. For that and every day I have them, I am eternally grateful. For now I am caring for my mother. She is a real pain in the ass! Until today, I have been okay with the situation, but have never embraced it. Today as I guided her down the hall to have an MRI done I just felt sorry for her. I realized that moment that I have been looking at things all wrong. For one she would rather be dead than to need the help of me or anyone for that matter to get around. she no longer drives and feels so helpless at times. I am busy with work and a modest personal life. I realized that instead of dreading her whining, grunting and snoring as she rests in the chair in the living room I should embrace the experience and make the best of the time I have with her. So today I have chosen a new view and decided it is time for us both to be happy. I am truly happy being a good person. I enjoy being nice to people and doing what I can for most anyone. After I finish this I am going to the local college and registering for a couple of classes. I am sure there might be other places I would rather be at this time, but I am not. So in an effort to get happy and find contentment I will be more creative and allow myself to not have limitations...I shall have goals and a more fearless approach to life. Perhaps all I was lacking was myself.